OK, even a lot of my non-secular girlfriends suffer from the same condition (Note that for some reason I know of no guy who experiences the following dilemma.). It's when you put your personal needs at the bottom of your to-do list, again and again.
This is the reason I work as an instructor at the gym in my spare time. Take tonight, for example: I had left home for work yesterday and spent the night in the town where we have our main office. On my drive home I got to town around dinner time, but I didn't go home directly since I had a class to teach shortly after 7 P.M. It turned out to be a magical hour, it felt absolutely fabulous, and I had the time of my life.
The sad thing is, had I not been teaching this class, you know, so that I had to be there, I would never have gone on my own. This despite the fact that it was the best thing I could do for ME. My kids are in bed by 8 P.M. anyway. I am really looking forward to seeing them in the morning and eating breakfast together, that's soon enough, right? Especially if it means being greeted by a relaxed, well-rested Mom?
But my feelings of obligation to them doesn't allow me to give myself the right to take 2 hours for myself if I haven't seen them for 36 hours. Luckily my obligation to my class (seeing as I have a contract to honor) saved my (now exhausted) butt once again.
Will I ever learn to put myself first, at least some of the time, at my own initiative?
Jag vet, jag gör precis likadant. Ställer mig precis samma fråga. Mitt svar blir alltid: tyvärr inte.
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